Please remember that we are Souls having a Human experience.  Not Souls having a Soul experience.  As humans, we can foster a connection with the Divine, however, we do still live here on earth and we have come here to experience things from the perspective of being human.

Too many of you rake yourself over the coals when you are acting human or experiencing human things.  It is okay to be human, to feel feelings that are more “Earth Based”, such as fear or sadness.  Just because at our true essence we are Love, does not mean we don’t have bad days.

Illness and Being Human

I have a friend that gets upset when she has a cold.  Her whole family has gone through it, and now that it is her turn, she is upset.  “I am not supposed to be sick, I am above that!”

I am here to tell you, we live in human bodies, it is okay if we get sick.  It is okay if we get well.  It is okay if we transform.

Turns out I’ve got a bug myself this week.  It started on Tuesday in my chest, and this morning I woke up barely able to talk.  First thing I did was thank my body and my immune system for doing what it was meant to do.  Symptoms of a cold is your immune systems way of removing a virus.

My friend (the sick one), is coming up to Canada to meet me and we are going to a Matrix Energetics Seminar for the weekend.  So, her and I are both sick, however, we are going to a “transformational” and “magic” weekend, so I am sure all is how it is meant to be.  I suspect we will both feel better once we are in a different space.  Perhaps the timing is perfect and being away from the stress and responsibility of our lives will help us both.

Being Human and Loss

On Wednesday this week I had to put my horse to sleep.  He was an amazing soul (and I am sure he still is up in horsey heaven).  I have the ability to talk to dead people, and I perceive death in a way that is different than a lot of people do.  That does not mean it is easy for me.  Nor does it mean that I do not suffer and grieve the loss.

I am not a big crier, but I can tell you, I have cried every single day from last Friday until yesterday.  I feel like crying while writing this. (okay, so now I am crying lol).  This is a part of the process of being human!!  I know Josh is is horsey heaven and that he had a very peaceful and stress free passing in a good space surrounded by other horses and people he knew and loved.  He had no suffering with his crossing and I’ll see him again once my human existence is done.  It still makes me sad.  I am human.

So please, if you are reading this and you find yourself going through a tough time…let yourself.  No one can tell you how to grieve, or how to feel, or how long something is “supposed” to last.

It is important though to focus on the fact that ‘this too shall pass’.  Leading up to the decision to let Josh go I was all over the map with my thoughts and feelings.  If I could just…. then maybe he could be around longer…  the thoughts went on and on and it was like a roller coaster.  One of the hardest things I’ve been through in my life.

Now that he is gone, yes, I mourn, I cry, I miss him, but I will get past it.  The first couple of days I kept thinking, “Oh my God, he’s gone, this is permanent”.  My main focus was on questioning whether or not I did the right thing, and on how much of an empty space there is where he used to be.

I am working on focusing on him being in heaven, and not suffering and of frolicking in a field and playing with baby horses (he always loved babies).  I want to focus on how good he feels now ~ in his Spirit ‘Body’.  Nope, not easy at all, however I am human and I have the capacity to love and feel and move on (in my own time).

PS.  it doesn’t escape me that the day I called the vet was the day that my chest pain started.  Even though it was a cold that started in my lungs my lungs are at the centre of my chest ~ right at my heart centre.  I AM OKAY AND I WILL CONTINUE TO BE OKAY.  This is a decision my human self is making.