Creating Your Reality When So Much is Out of Control

Your Soul Knows

I write a lot about creating your own reality, and control; and what we have control over, and what we do not.

It is really easy to get wrapped up in our lives to the point that we end up in a bit of a ‘control spiral’, and we do not even realize we are in it. I meditate or do energy work every day; I practice being very aware of my thoughts and feelings, and do my very best to feel the best that I can in every moment. I don’t always feel terrific, but I always try to feel the best that I possibly can.

Over the years, I have learned to NOT let my thoughts spiral out of control. We do have some control over our thoughts. I am aware of my thoughts and feelings, and when I notice I am having a thought that is on the negative side, I replace it with something more positive. Even if all I can muster is “it will all be okay in the end”, if that is the best feeling thought I can have, I go for it. Sometimes I just go outside into my yard and read, or nap, or do puzzles ~ anything to keep from thinking about stresses. We do create with our thoughts, and thinking about stresses can, and does, create more stressful situations in our lives.

I had what I call an epiphany this morning, Oprah calls them “Light bulb moments”, but really they are usually messages from our Guides or our own higher selves. I have these most mornings. While I am sitting having my coffee, I ask what it is I need to know for the day, and most of the time I get some really good information.

I want to share some personal information with you, and the message I got this morning because I suspect there are a lot of people in this situation and if my personal story can help you or even one person it will be worth it.

Firstly, the world itself is going through massive changes and a lot of people are afraid and worried. Many of us are feeling anxiety out of the blue, for no apparent reason. Sometimes the anxiety is fleeting, and sometimes it hangs around for a while. You may find yourself thinking “Why do I feel so anxious? Everything is fine.” This is part of what the Collective Consciousness is going through right now. There are many people on our planet that are still asleep and are still very attached to the Third Dimensional way of being. If something hits the news or gets ‘out there’ into the Collective Consciousness (the “Ether”), many people get stressed. That can cause many of us empath’s to feel out of balance and like something is wrong, even if we know we are okay.

The second thing is the control/creation aspect of things and this is where my personal life comes into play.

My husband and I have a Concrete Coring & Cutting Company. Business is really good for the company and there is a lot of work at the moment.

I have had a lot of work this year and things have been flowing quite smoothly there. I have had some illness, and some injury, and some stress (partly from the collective anxiety), and I am off work right now (just since this weekend). I had to cancel some appointments this week. I make enough money from my work to pay my bills and travel for training/work; and I love my job. I do not, however, make enough to cover the expenses of the other company. By worrying about our other company, I allowed the stresses from it to interfere with my work. I CREATED more financial stress for myself by focusing on the financial stress of the construction company.

Here is where it gets tricky and where the control comes in. As much as the Construction end of things is doing well, and it has accounts receivable, it is not getting paid in a timely manner. Banks are holding back money from what they used to give developers, so developers are having to pick and choose what bills they are going to pay (and apparently ours is not one of them). We are only getting paid sporadically, so we are having to pick and choose which bills we can pay. Usually we pay our mortgage and expenses so we can do more work.

I found it amusing the other day when my bank called me asking for money and the reason I did not have it is because the same bank was holding back money from the people that owed me. I actually had a good laugh over that. That just seems to be the way things are going these days. This is a good example of something that I cannot control. I cannot control what the bank does, I can only control my thoughts, feelings and vibration around it.

This morning I noticed yet another account for the company was overdrawn because some service charges came out that I forgot came out in September. For a moment I felt horrible. I pride myself on being able to pay my bills and keep on top of everything, even for the construction company and I had forgotten something. How could I do this? What the hell? It’s one thing after another! Is there no end to what “they” are doing to us?!? (the banks/government/economy).

I know we have control over our lives. Why is my life feeling so out of control? Stuff is happening and there’s not much I can do about it. Hmmm. Quite the conundrum. I will tell you what I did and hopefully you can use this in your own life and it will help.

I LET GO!!! For weeks now I have been focusing on the details of who to pay, when to pay, what’s coming in, what is going out, crying out “WHO IS GOING TO PAY THEIR BILL AND WHEN!” This is BS!! All these people owe our company money.

On the one hand, it felt okay because we have money due in. On the other hand it felt awful because I have to keep picking and choosing who is getting paid, and I have to keep phoning people and telling them the money is not here yet.

Another thing I realized this morning, is that I have been trying to micro-manage the details of things. I have been analyzing stuff too much, and trying to figure out “How” to get it done. What I need to do is go back to my “knowing” it WILL be done. There are things I need to manage, after all I am running a company, but there are a lot of things that are simply not manageable. Me trying to manage them is just screwing up my energy.

So this morning, I decided to let go and let God. We are God, we are Creators. By letting go and allowing for the flow it helps me to feel better. No amount of planning, or fretting or worrying will bring me to where I want to be. The only thing that could possibly make me feel better is to let go. To quit thinking, to quit ‘managing’. I will think when it is required, but if there is nothing I can do about a situation except for maybe make a phone call, I will make the call and then I will let it go.

We create through our vibration. Thinking about all these details is lowering my vibration. I have been sick, I have been injured, I have been stressed, I have cancelled appointments with clients. It’s time to leave the details up to God and just do what I can. I CAN, through my thoughts and my intention keep feeling good. If I keep feeling good, I will attract more things into my life that feel good. That’s it. Period.